Assalamualaikum and hi!
Ummm. Where do I start... Well, it has been so effing (xD) long since my last post in this blog. Not that I'd intended to stop writing whatsoever. It is just that I feel like there isn't anything interesting that have been going on in my life for these past few years that I am willing to share.
Now let's stop beating around the bush shall we? Kahkah.
The reason why I finally started writing again is because one of my wishes came true. Lol this might sound ridiculous but the "wish" of mine that inspired me to write this blog post is I had promised to myself that if I got dean's list for the 1st and 2nd semester in Food Technology's course, I am obliged to write an entry in this blog. (What kind of wish is that right. Muahaha).
*WARNING* This post might be TOO LONG!
For those who knew me, they would probably know that I have further my studies in Accounting at UiTM Sabah even though I took Science Stream during my high school. But for those who are close to me, they knew that I had changed my course from Accounting to Science again (Food Technology). LOL.
So actually, this is the point on why I promised myself to write a blog post if my wish of getting dean's list is achieved, which is why I quit taking the Accountancy course during the fourth semester in UiTM.
To be honest, I'm not really interested in studying accounting. Then why the hell did you accept the study offer? I accepted the study offer because I saw many of my friends have furthered their studies to the next level after SPM. Although Accounting was not my first choice in UPU, (I put Science as my first choice) I force myself to continue my studies in that course. And also because I want to be like everyone else who managed to further their studies.The problem is that, my love for science has been growing since I'm in primary school. And as you can see in my 2012 entry which is NOW or NEVER!, I have stated that my ambition is to be a dietitian. So when I got the offer to study in Accounting, I'm a bit disappointed. (Very disappointed if you ask me). However, I've tried to be positive because I know that there are certain things that you need to force or as I can say, you need to fake it til' you make it!
(I actually want to talk a lot about my experiences during studying Accounting but I think it is not necessary).
Okay, so cut to the chase;
I didn't even like Accounting even though I had forced myself to accept my fate and move on (kahkahkah). But there are some subjects of Accounting that I actually like which is Business Mathematics, Microeconomics, Fundamentals of Business Management, Cost Accounting 1 and Introduction to Business Management. As for the Accounting itself, which is Financial Accounting One, Two and Three, I didn't really like it. Hahaha. For me, I love to study or learn about something that actually matters to life. I'm not saying that when you love Accounting, you don't care about life. Because some of the importance of accountancy are that you can maintain your business enterprise or you can learn about how to gain profit successfully and even learned about record keeping which is crucial when running a business. What I meant when I mentioned that I love to study things that are related to life was, well, science is a knowledge about or the study of the natural world based on facts that are learned through experiments and observations. (Such as Biology where it means that it is "the study of life").
Suddenly I realized that even after I fake my love in accountancy until I am in the third semester, I still didn't find accountancy appealing. And that is when I truly understand the meaning of "Do/Chase What You Love". Because in the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take.
Gambaq2 ni sebenaqnya merupakan beberapa motivation words yang buat saya really moved untuk kejar apa yg saya suka selama ni. I don't deny that sometimes you have to force yourself doing things you don't enjoy cuhs who knows, in the end, you might love doing it. But you need to understand bahawa bukan semua benda boleh paksa. Selagi benda tu halal, then go for it, right?
Now let me tell ya about my final examination results throughout the semester. For the 1st semester, I managed to get a grade point average of 3.28. And my GPA is decreasing as the semester increases. Hahaha. In semester two, I only got a GPA of 2.89 and for the third semester, I got 2.6++ (I don't remember). And that is when I know I need to pull myself together or continue to pursue my dream in becoming a dietitian or at least studying in the science field again. Apparently, I took the second option and discuss it with my dad whether he'll bless my decision or not. And of course I have prayed to Allah for guiding me which decision is better.
After my dad gave his blessings, I quickly searched for UPU offerings and then I've found out about the course of Food Technology. So without hesitating, I went to the HEP building of UiTM to confirm my withdrawal from UiTM. After the withdrawal was successful, I applied to UPU and had put Food Technology as my first choice. Alhamdulillah with Allah's help, I was offered to study in Food Technology course at Semambu, Kuantan, Pahang. AND I AM SO HAPPY & GRATEFUL WITH MY DECISION, THANKS TO ALLAH.
*Throughout my battle (ceh) in deciding whether it is a right move to quit accountancy or not, there are several of my friends whom I've shared my identity crisis with (muahaha) *besides my suppportive mum and my siblings. To be honest, without them, their encouragement and support and how a great listener they are, I would not be able to bravely confront my dad about my mixed feelings. Because like seriously am I going to waste my second year of studying accounting just like that? Is my decision worth it? Well, that amazing people who were always there when I need them are ARR and MDAI. (It is their initials. Haha). Don't get me wrong, banyak lagi kawan rapat lain yg sentiasa ada bila aku perlukan. Cuma bezanya dengan 2 orang ni ialah sebab dengan dorang, I am more comfortable to share any of my problems with).
So, I think the best way to end this entry is by showing you my final examination result of Food Technology.
Well, here it is 😃 :
Alhamdulillah walaupun tidak tinggi sangat, tapi I bersyukur dan puas hati. Kepandaian bukan terletak atas pointer semata-mata kan. For me, I think what is more important is that you know what you are doing and where you are heading next! :D and don't forget about akhirah as well.
Sekian, ma'assalamah!
Sekian, ma'assalamah!
P/S: If you have anything to ask, just ask okay. Whether it's related to my course or not. Hehe.